Lessons I've learned ....

I've learned that we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.

I've learned that no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

I've learned that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. The same goes for true love.

I've learned that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.

I've learned that it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.

I've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.

I've learned that you can keep going long after you can't.

I've learned that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.

I've learned that either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I've learned that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there had better be something else to take its place.

I've learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.

I've learned that money is a lousy way of keeping score.

I've learned that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.

I've learned that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down, will be the ones to help you get back up.

I've learned that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

I've learned that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them, and less to do with how many years you have lived.

I've learned that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.

I've learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.

I've learned that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do love each other.

I've learned that you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever.

I've learned that two people can look at the same thing and see something totally different.

I've learned that your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.

I've learned that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you you will find the strength to help.

I've learned that credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.

I've learned that the people you care about most in life are sometimes taken from you too soon.

...Love Makes it hard to give Up...

I Cant Get You out of My head

No Matter how i try

I Still love You

Even when you make me Cry,

I want You in my Arms

I want you to be Mine

But You don't want me Now

You says it's Not our Time,

Relationships are hard Enough

But love makes them even Worse

Love Makes it hard to give Up

Love is a curse,

I Hate the fact I love You

And that i cant Get You out of My Mind

I hate that every time i think of You

My heart flutters and My eyes Cry,

I don't understand how you do this to Me,

How You make Me want to Die,

How I dream about you Every Night,

I 'd rather Cry and mope and Whine

Than call You to get things Straight

Because somewhere in my Heart

I know Its already Too Late ...... :(

---to my heart only you have the key--- :(

--Y can't lyf be simple--

Y can’t lyf be just simple...
Y can’t life be less complicated...
Y can’t I express myself without any restrictions...
Y can’t it be just a yes or a no...
Y can’t all un-necessary things be given less importance than what’s necessary...
Y cant I always speak the truth...
Y cant I like someone without any limits...
Y can’t I love with whole of my heart...
Y can’t I just speak out what I want...
Y can’t lyf be just simple...

...Reality or Artificiality....

All the world's a stage, and all the men and women merely players: they have their exits and their entrances; and one man in his time plays many parts, his acts being seven ages. …….William Shakespeare

This quote by Shakespeare is rather taken too seriously these days. Taken literally these days almost everything around you is fake. It is difficult to accept but everything around us is moving towards artificiality.

We have become so professional at faking that we can even fake pure forms of emotion like friendship, love without even noticing what we are doing.

We fake being friends, we fake being happy, we fake being content, and we fake even love….

So ultimately our life percolates down to a stage play where we are playing a part.

Everything is forgotten so easily. Everything said and done, to be forgotten so easily.

Some people like me still believe everything is real and are left in a state of shock and disbelief when they see something they felt so real fade away so easily in front of them.

Maybe I don’t belong here… maybe I will never understand….

But I am sure of one thing, that I am like this and I will be so….

.....Waiting annoys and silence kills....

Waiting annoys and silence kills and sometimes a mix of both is too much to take...

we at all times want to avoid a mix of these two but sometimes when there is no other way out and wait is inevitable..

anticipation sometimes really causes the greatest pain...

Silence of all the things i find annoying... particularly when all you want to hear is a single word from the other person and they remain silent ... and that silence never breaks... :x

…..Lyf Back on Track…..

Finally after a looong tym getting tym to post something now… :)

Before a storm there is always a calm…..but have you ever noticed that there is a calm even after a storm.. :) thats the kind of calmness i am experiencing right now…:)

But there is a slight difference in both the situations… before a storm the calmness frightens us because we have a fear of losing someone we could die for but the calmness after a storm is just devoid of any fears or inhibitions….it is just empty space, just empty…

I thought that i would never ever say this but sometimes it feels good that there is nothing to worry about…no one more to lose…

all that has to be done has been done…

all that has to be gone is gone…

Once this state is reached and you have realized then you tend to try and be the person you were before… comparing again to a person effected by a storm, he tries to put together the bits and pecies of whatever is present with him and tries to rebuild his life.

This process of rebuilding ones life is the most difficult one, but it is inevitable and has to be done.

so trying to do that and trying to be as normal as possible…..my life seems to be back on track:)

atleast it seems so……….

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And ruin’d love, when it is built anew,

Grows fairer than at first, more strong, far greater. - Shakespeare