...Love Makes it hard to give Up...

I Cant Get You out of My head

No Matter how i try

I Still love You

Even when you make me Cry,

I want You in my Arms

I want you to be Mine

But You don't want me Now

You says it's Not our Time,

Relationships are hard Enough

But love makes them even Worse

Love Makes it hard to give Up

Love is a curse,

I Hate the fact I love You

And that i cant Get You out of My Mind

I hate that every time i think of You

My heart flutters and My eyes Cry,

I don't understand how you do this to Me,

How You make Me want to Die,

How I dream about you Every Night,

I 'd rather Cry and mope and Whine

Than call You to get things Straight

Because somewhere in my Heart

I know Its already Too Late ...... :(

---to my heart only you have the key--- :(

--Y can't lyf be simple--

Y can’t lyf be just simple...
Y can’t life be less complicated...
Y can’t I express myself without any restrictions...
Y can’t it be just a yes or a no...
Y can’t all un-necessary things be given less importance than what’s necessary...
Y cant I always speak the truth...
Y cant I like someone without any limits...
Y can’t I love with whole of my heart...
Y can’t I just speak out what I want...
Y can’t lyf be just simple...

...Reality or Artificiality....

All the world's a stage, and all the men and women merely players: they have their exits and their entrances; and one man in his time plays many parts, his acts being seven ages. …….William Shakespeare

This quote by Shakespeare is rather taken too seriously these days. Taken literally these days almost everything around you is fake. It is difficult to accept but everything around us is moving towards artificiality.

We have become so professional at faking that we can even fake pure forms of emotion like friendship, love without even noticing what we are doing.

We fake being friends, we fake being happy, we fake being content, and we fake even love….

So ultimately our life percolates down to a stage play where we are playing a part.

Everything is forgotten so easily. Everything said and done, to be forgotten so easily.

Some people like me still believe everything is real and are left in a state of shock and disbelief when they see something they felt so real fade away so easily in front of them.

Maybe I don’t belong here… maybe I will never understand….

But I am sure of one thing, that I am like this and I will be so….

.....Waiting annoys and silence kills....

Waiting annoys and silence kills and sometimes a mix of both is too much to take...

we at all times want to avoid a mix of these two but sometimes when there is no other way out and wait is inevitable..

anticipation sometimes really causes the greatest pain...

Silence of all the things i find annoying... particularly when all you want to hear is a single word from the other person and they remain silent ... and that silence never breaks... :x

…..Lyf Back on Track…..

Finally after a looong tym getting tym to post something now… :)

Before a storm there is always a calm…..but have you ever noticed that there is a calm even after a storm.. :) thats the kind of calmness i am experiencing right now…:)

But there is a slight difference in both the situations… before a storm the calmness frightens us because we have a fear of losing someone we could die for but the calmness after a storm is just devoid of any fears or inhibitions….it is just empty space, just empty…

I thought that i would never ever say this but sometimes it feels good that there is nothing to worry about…no one more to lose…

all that has to be done has been done…

all that has to be gone is gone…

Once this state is reached and you have realized then you tend to try and be the person you were before… comparing again to a person effected by a storm, he tries to put together the bits and pecies of whatever is present with him and tries to rebuild his life.

This process of rebuilding ones life is the most difficult one, but it is inevitable and has to be done.

so trying to do that and trying to be as normal as possible…..my life seems to be back on track:)

atleast it seems so……….

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And ruin’d love, when it is built anew,

Grows fairer than at first, more strong, far greater. - Shakespeare